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I saw the best minds of my
generation destroyed by madness, starving
hysterical naked,
dragging themselves through
the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry
fix,
angelheaded hipsters burning
for the ancient heavenly connection to the
starry dynamo in the machinery of night,
who poverty and tatters and
hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the
supernatural darkness of cold-water flats
floating across the tops of
cities contemplating jazz,
who bared their brains to
Heaven under the El and saw Mohammedan angels
staggering on tenement roofs illuminated,
who passed through
universities with radiant cool eyes hallucinating Arkan-
sas and Blake-light tragedy among the
scholars of war,
who were expelled from the
academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes
on the windows of the skull,
who cowered in unshaven
rooms in underwear, burning their money in
wastebaskets and listening to the Terror
through the wall,
who got busted in their
pubic beards returning through Laredo with a belt
of marijuana for New York,
who ate fire in paint hotels
or drank turpentine in Paradise Alley, death, or
purgatoried their torsos night after night
with dreams, with drugs,
with waking nightmares, alcohol and cock and
endless balls,
incomparable blind streets
of shuddering cloud and lightning in the mind
leaping toward poles of Canada &
Paterson, illuminating all the mo-
tionless world of Time between,
Peyote solidities of halls,
backyard green tree cemetery dawns, wine drunk-
enness over the rooftops, storefront
boroughs of teahead joyride neon
blinking traffic light, sun and moon and
tree vibrations in the roaring
winter dusks of Brooklyn, ashcan rantings
and kind king light of
mind,
who chained themselves to
subways for the endless ride from Battery to holy
Bronx on benzedrine until the noise of
wheels and children brought
them down shuddering mouth-wracked and
battered bleak of brain
all drained of brilliance in the drear
light of Zoo,
who sank all night in
submarine light of Bickford's floated out and sat
through the stale beer afternoon in
desolate Fugazzi's, listening to the
crack of doom on the hydrogen jukebox,
who talked continuously
seventy hours from park to pad to bar to Bellevue
to museum to the Brooklyn Bridge,
a lost battalion of platonic
conversationalists jumping down the stoops off fire
escapes off windowsills of Empire State out
of the moon,
yacketayakking screaming
vomiting whispering facts and memories and
anecdotes and eyeball kicks and shocks of
hospitals and jails and wars,
whole intellects disgorged
in total recall for seven days and nights with
brilliant eyes, meat for the Synagogue cast
on the pavement,
who vanished into nowhere
Zen New Jersey leaving a trail of ambiguous
picture postcards of Atlantic City Hall,
suffering Eastern sweats and
Tangerian bone-grindings and migraines of
China under junk-withdrawal in Newark's
bleak furnished room,
who wandered around and
around at midnight in the railroad yard wonder-
ing where to go, and went, leaving no
broken hearts,
who lit cigarettes in
boxcars boxcars boxcars racketing through snow toward
lonesome farms in grandfather night,
who studied Plotinus Poe St.
John of the Cross telepathy and bop kabbalah
because the cosmos instinctively vibrated
at their feet in Kansas,
who loned it through the
streets of Idaho seeking visionary indian angels
who were visionary indian angels,
who thought they were only
mad when Baltimore gleamed in supernatural
ecstasy,
who jumped in limousines
with the Chinaman of Oklahoma on the impulse
of winter midnight streetlight smalltown rain,
who lounged hungry and
lonesome through Houston seeking jazz or sex or
soup, and followed the brilliant Spaniard
to converse about America
and Eternity, a hopeless task, and so took
ship to Africa,
who disappeared into the
volcanoes of Mexico leaving behind nothing but
the shadow of dungarees and the lava and
ash of poetry scattered in
fireplace Chicago,
who reappeared on the West
Coast investigating the FBI in beards and shorts
with big pacifist eyes sexy in their dark
skin passing out incompre-
hensible leaflets,
who burned cigarette holes
in their arms protesting the narcotic tobacco haze
of Capitalism,
who distributed
Supercommunist pamphlets in Union Square weeping and
undressing while the sirens of Los Alamos
wailed them down, and
wailed down Wall, and the Staten Island
ferry also wailed,
who broke down crying in
white gymnasiums naked and trembling before
the machinery of other skeletons,
who bit detectives in the
neck and shrieked with delight in policecars for
committing no crime but their own wild
cooking pederasty and
intoxication,
who howled on their knees in
the subway and were dragged off the roof
waving genitals and manuscripts,
who let themselves be fucked
in the ass by saintly motorcyclists, and
screamed with joy,
who blew and were blown by
those human seraphim, the sailors, caresses of
Atlantic and Caribbean love,
who balled in the morning in
the evenings in rosegardens and the grass of
public parks and cemeteries scattering
their semen freely to whom-
ever come who may,
who hiccuped endlessly
trying to giggle but wound up with a sob behind
a partition in a Turkish Bath when the
blond & naked angel came to
pierce them with a sword,
who lost their loveboys to
the three old shrews of fate the one eyed shrew
of the heterosexual dollar the one eyed
shrew that winks out of the
womb and the one eyed shrew that does
nothing but sit on her ass
and snip the intellectual golden threads of
the craftsman's loom.
who copulated ecstatic and
insatiate with a bottle of beer a sweetheart a
package of cigarettes a candle and fell off
the bed, and continued
along the floor and down the hall and ended
fainting on the wall with
a vision of ultimate cunt and come eluding
the last gyzym of con-
sciousness,
who sweetened the snatches
of a million girls trembling in the sunset, and
were red eyed in the morning but prepared
to sweeten the snatch of
the sunrise, flashing buttocks under barns
and naked in the lake,
who went out whoring through
Colorado in myriad stolen night-cars, N.C.,
secret hero of these poems, cocksman and
Adonis of Denver--joy to
the memory of his innumerable lays of girls
in empty lots & diner
backyards, moviehouses' rickety rows, on
mountaintops in caves or
with gaunt waitresses in familiar roadside
lonely petticoat upliftings
& especially secret gas-station
solipsisms of johns, & hometown alleys
too,
who faded out in vast sordid
movies, were shifted in dreams, woke on a
sudden Manhattan, and picked themselves up
out of basements hung-
over with heartless Tokay and horrors of
Third Avenue iron dreams
& stumbled to unemployment offices,
who walked all night with
their shoes full of blood on the snowbank docks
waiting for a door in the East River to
open to a room full of steam-
heat and opium,
who created great suicidal
dramas on the apartment cliff-banks of the Hud-
son under the wartime blue floodlight of
the moon & their heads shall
be crowned with laurel in oblivion,
who ate the lamb stew of the
imagination or digested the crab at the muddy
bottom of the rivers of Bowery,
who wept at the romance of
the streets with their pushcarts full of onions
and bad music,
who sat in boxes breathing
in the darkness under the bridge, and rose up to
build harpsichords in their lofts,
who coughed on the sixth
floor of Harlem crowned with flame under the
tubercular sky surrounded by orange crates
of theology,
who scribbled all night
rocking and rolling over lofty incantations which in
the yellow morning were stanzas of
gibberish,
who cooked rotten animals
lung heart feet tail borsht & tortillas dreaming
of the pure vegetable kingdom,
who plunged themselves under
meat trucks looking for an egg,
who threw their watches off
the roof to cast their ballot for Eternity outside
of Time, & alarm clocks fell on their
heads every day for the next
decade,
who cut their wrists three
times successively unsuccessfully, gave up and
were forced to open antique stores where
they thought they were
growing old and cried,
who were burned alive in
their innocent flannel suits on Madison Avenue
amid blasts of leaden verse & the
tanked-up clatter of the iron regi-
ments of fashion & the nitroglycerine
shrieks of the fairies of advertis-
ing & the mustard gas of sinister
intelligent editors, or were run down
by the drunken taxicabs of Absolute
Reality,
who jumped off the Brooklyn
Bridge this actually happened and walked
away unknown and forgotten into the ghostly
daze of Chinatown
soup alleyways & firetrucks, not even
one free beer,
who sang out of their
windows in despair, fell out of the subway window,
jumped in the filthy Passaic, leaped on
negroes, cried all over the
street, danced on broken wineglasses
barefoot smashed phonograph
records of nostalgic European 1930s German
jazz finished the whis-
key and threw up groaning into the bloody
toilet, moans in their ears
and the blast of colossal steamwhistles,
who barreled down the
highways of the past journeying to the each other's
hotrod-Golgotha jail-solitude watch or
Birmingham jazz incarnation,
who drove crosscountry
seventytwo hours to find out if I had a vision or you
had a vision or he had a vision to find out
Eternity,
who journeyed to Denver, who
died in Denver, who came back to Denver
& waited in vain, who watched over
Denver & brooded & loned in
Denver and finally went away to find out
the Time, & now Denver
is lonesome for her heroes,
who fell on their knees in
hopeless cathedrals praying for each other's salva-
tion and light and breasts, until the soul
illuminated its hair for a
second,
who crashed through their
minds in jail waiting for impossible criminals
with golden heads and the charm of reality
in their hearts who sang
sweet blues to Alcatraz,
who retired to Mexico to
cultivate a habit, or Rocky Mount to tender Buddha
or Tangiers to boys or Southern Pacific to
the black locomotive or
Harvard to Narcissus to Woodlawn to the daisychain
or grave,
who demanded sanity trials
accusing the radio of hypnotism & were left with
their insanity & their hands & a
hung jury,
who threw potato salad at
CCNY lecturers on Dadaism and subsequently
presented themselves on the granite steps
of the madhouse with
shaven heads and harlequin speech of
suicide, demanding instanta-
neous lobotomy,
and who were given instead
the concrete void of insulin Metrazol electricity
hydrotherapy psychotherapy occupational
therapy pingpong & am-
nesia,
who in humorless protest
overturned only one symbolic pingpong table,
resting briefly in catatonia,
returning years later truly
bald except for a wig of blood, and tears and
fingers, to the visible madman doom of the
wards of the madtowns
of the East,
Pilgrim State's Rockland's
and Greystone's foetid halls, bickering with the
echoes of the soul, rocking and rolling in
the midnight solitude-bench
dolmen-realms of love, dream of life a
nightmare, bodies turned to
stone as heavy as the moon,
with mother finally ******,
and the last fantastic book flung out of the
tenement window, and the last door closed
at 4 a.m. and the last
telephone slammed at the wall in reply and
the last furnished room
emptied down to the last piece of mental
furniture, a yellow paper
rose twisted on a wire hanger in the
closet, and even that imaginary,
nothing but a hopeful little bit of
hallucination--
ah, Carl, while you are not
safe I am not safe, and now you're really in the
total animal soup of time--
and who therefore ran
through the icy streets obsessed with a sudden flash
of the alchemy of the use of the ellipse
the catalog the meter & the
vibrating plane,
who dreamt and made
incarnate gaps in Time & Space through images
juxtaposed, and trapped the archangel of
the soul between 2 visual
images and joined the elemental verbs and
set the noun and dash of
consciousness together jumping with
sensation of Pater Omnipotens
Aeterna Deus
to recreate the syntax and
measure of poor human prose and stand before
you speechless and intelligent and shaking
with shame, rejected yet
confessing out the soul to conform to the
rhythm of thought in his
naked and endless head,
the madman bum and angel
beat in Time, unknown, yet putting down here
what might be left to say in time come
after death,
and rose reincarnate in the
ghostly clothes of jazz in the goldhorn shadow
of the band and blew the suffering of
America's naked mind for love
into an eli eli lamma lamma sabacthani
saxophone cry that shivered
the cities down to the last radio
with the absolute heart of
the poem of life butchered out of their own bodies
good to eat a thousand years.
II
What sphinx of cement and
aluminum bashed open their skulls and ate up
their brains and imagination?
Moloch! Solitude! Filth!
Ugliness! Ashcans and unobtainable dollars! Chil-
dren screaming under the stairways! Boys
sobbing in armies! Old
men weeping in the parks!
Moloch! Moloch! Nightmare of
Moloch! Moloch the loveless! Mental Mo-
loch! Moloch the heavy judger of men!
Moloch the incomprehensible
prison! Moloch the crossbone soulless jail-
house and Congress of sorrows! Moloch whose
buildings are judg-
ment! Moloch the vast stone of war! Moloch
the stunned govern-
ments!
Moloch whose mind is pure
machinery! Moloch whose blood is running
money! Moloch whose fingers are ten armies!
Moloch whose breast
is a cannibal dynamo! Moloch whose ear is a smoking tomb!
Moloch whose eyes are a
thousand blind windows! Moloch whose skyscrap-
ers stand in the long streets like endless
Jehovahs! Moloch whose
factories dream and croak in the fog!
Moloch whose smokestacks and
antennae crown the cities!
Moloch whose love is endless
oil and stone! Moloch whose soul is electricity
and banks! Moloch whose poverty is the
specter of genius! Moloch
whose fate is a cloud of sexless hydrogen!
Moloch whose name is the
Mind!
Moloch in whom I sit lonely!
Moloch in whom I dream Angels! Crazy in
Moloch! Cocksucker in Moloch! Lacklove and
manless in Moloch!
Moloch who entered my soul
early! Moloch in whom I am a consciousness
without a body! Moloch who frightened me
out of my natural ec-
stasy! Moloch whom I abandon! Wake up in
Moloch! Light stream-
ing out of the sky!
Moloch! Moloch! Robot
apartments! invisible suburbs! skeleton treasuries!
blind capitals! demonic industries!
spectral nations! invincible mad houses
granite cocks! monstrous bombs!
They broke their backs
lifting Moloch to Heaven! Pavements, trees, radios,
tons! lifting the city to Heaven which
exists and is everywhere about us!
Visions! omens!
hallucinations! miracles! ecstasies! gone down the American
river!
Dreams! adorations!
illuminations! religions! the whole boatload of sensitive
bullshit!
Breakthroughs! over the
river! flips and crucifixions! gone down the flood!
Highs! Epiphanies! Despairs! Ten years'
animal screams and suicides!
Minds! New loves! Mad generation! down on
the rocks of Time!
Real holy laughter in the
river! They saw it all! the wild eyes! the holy yells!
They bade farewell! They jumped off the
roofl to solitude! waving! carrying
flowers! Down to the river! into the
street!
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